Someday when I'm struggling with whatever life decides to toss at me, and I'm looking for a happy place to escape the chaos of reality, I hope I remember tonight.
Tonight when Lily is still an only child and she exudes joy the way only 2-year-old really can.
Tonight when she realized her capability to escape the confines of her baby crib and both scare the pee out of us and induce a serious case of the giggles by showing up at our bedroom door quite unexpected.
Tonight when she just kept talking me into "more snuggles mama" and "one more song" and "mamadaddiesbed?". Because bedtime was an hour ago but I can't seem to tell her no when she's reciting ee-i-ee-i-o and bah bah sheepy... And when she teams up with daddy to call me "beaulliful mama"? I'm basically at her beck and call.
I hope I remember tonight when I fell asleep in my Hunter's strong arms after giggling uncontrollably about stupid YouTube vids. How safe and content and sure I feel lying here with him.
Because if I could capture this feeling and keep it around for when I need it, I just know it would save me some heartache and angst in the future. To be loved is a beautiful beautiful thing. And this everyday, ordinary, wonderful love story I've found myself living is as beautiful a thing as I can imagine right now.
I've always loved having a summer birthday for lots of reasons.
But one of my favorites is that it's a great time to re-evaluate goals and priorities near the middle of the year.
I've spent the last week or so reflecting on my 27th year of life and came to the conclusions that I'm not terribly sad to see it go.
As I begin the next year, and continue my process of rediscovery, I'm finding myself crowded by fears, doubts, insecurities and misconceptions.
Some of it I can pray through: prayer for His strength when I'm weak, for His peace when I'm restless, for His wisdom when I'm lost. But at times I've found myself crippled by a personal quest for identity.
How can I match my dreams + desires with my reality in a way that inspires forward movement but encourages contentment at the same time?
How will I continue to live a life filled with joy after asking (and receiving) a burden for the lost + lonely, the widows + orphans?
What will I do with my short time on this planet that makes my life worth it?
These questions are literally keeping me up at night and I'm actually thankful for them.
This year has been a year of struggling, yearning, waiting, asking, seeking. A year of painful refinement and necessary growth.
But it's time to move forward.
I'm praying this year will be one of great joy + celebration; of thanksgiving, discovery and humility.
So here's to simplifying, organizing and living with purpose.
Pursuing passion, living fearlessly, and maybe even a tattoo.
This summer seems to have flown by at an alarming rate. I'm lucky to get a post a month done. I'm feeling introspective and very inspired to slow the crap down and soak up all this goodness a little better. Still processing and figuring out what that means. In the meantime here's what we've been up to...
At the park, in the car, at home, with Milo and in the pool.
She's talking up a storm and runs everywhere.
Oh, and that smile.
Lord help us, that smile.
Hunter and I and Tyler and Beth saw the Carolina Chocolate Drops and Elephant Revival at the Botanic Gardens.
So so good!
I did the July Sweet William Market in Stapleton.
What a great market!
Found a few minutes to come up with a new print or two.
This one is a custom project that I LOVED working on!
Mama was feeling a little meh, so we did some shopping at The Body Shop (my favorite makeup/bath and body store).
Pretty sure she's better at it than me ;)
Visited the Lowry farmer's market and purchased an absurdly large bag of kettle corn.
Mostly because she's a doll... And because the sales guy was super nice.
On the pillows Great grandma Adams made us for a wedding gift.
Made a headboard.
A really awesome headboard that I'm so pumped about.
Thanks for the inspiration Ashley!
Went on coffee dates.
And just walked around looking downright precious.
Remember way back when it was the beginning of a new year & I was ready for a fresh start & I proclaimed 2013 to he the year of HEALTH?
Well apparently it's been 6 whole months since then so I thought I'd revisit the theme.
January started off with a workout bang that lasted through most if February even. Then life got busy (like it does) and then I ran out of West Wing episodes to watch during my late night work outs... & so on & so forth.
But lately I've been running! (We're talking 2ish miles tops so don't be too impressed.) (But we're also talking wake up and go on a run before work so do be a little impressed.)
Anyway I feel good. I'm also committing to eating as many whole foods as possible this month. Aka no preservatives or refined sugar or highly processed foods. If you have any favorite juicing recipes I would love them!